It's not so late at night. My children are asleep and I am dead tired. I am up typing this like some type of zombie.
Following my dreams is a long messy road.
it's worth it definitely, but sometimes on the path the end goal seems so far away.
There's not enough hours in the day, and I start to have doubts.
I have to remember that I wanted and chose this. I am doing this for a bigger purpose and I have to constantly remind myself that this is what I love. I have to fall back in love with decorating and design even when I'm tired, yawing, and half sleep with one eye open.
What I'm gonna do about it?!
First, let me explain where the question came from. About 12 years ago, I had a lot going on with me. It's about to get a little personal, so hold on to your seat belts people. Smiley face!
I was three months away from my wedding day and I had to have emergency ovarian surgery. Out of nowhere, a young healthy woman, near death internal bleeding for hours, in massive, I mean massive pain. Then, it happened. The machines went crazy. I was coded. All types of people ran into my room. A priest came in to pray. I was Catholic at the time. I begged God for my life, my eyes closed. I told myself I won't stop fighting to live no matter what. And just the day before I was hanging out with my fiance enjoying ourselves.
Obviously, I stabilized, had surgery and pulled through. My struggle wasn't over. The whispers came. Family and friends were telling my fiance to leave me because I couldn't have any kids. When I got wind. I told him if he wanted to go; I understood. As there was a chance I would not be able to have children. He stayed. (smart man!)
A month went by, I was still healing from my surgery, and clumsy old me managed to spill HOT boiling water on my thigh. So, now I have second degree burns. Just when I thought I was in pain from internal bleeding. That ain't got nothing on a second degree burn. I watched my skin literally fall off with my pants. My legs felt like they were on fire for days. I did not sleep for three days.
Something happened, though. I spilled the water on leg, I screamed. We (my mother and siblings) pulled my pants off, my skin fell off with it, and my brother carried me to the car. As my sister drove me to the hospital, my mom in the front seat, and I was in the back by myself with a back of ice, screaming at the top of my lungs.
I screamed to God, "Why, why did happen to me?" At the time I was thinking of the personal issues I faced, a possible broken engagement or marriage in a few short weeks, not sure if I could have children (my fiance's life dream was to have children of his own one day), and I was in recovery from my surgery the previous month.
My mother that tough strong lady that she is said in her stern loud tone of voice,
"Why not you? The question is, What you gonna do about it?
Now take that ice, put it on you leg and shut your mouth. Pray and thank God that you are okay!"
In the excruciating pain that I was in, that moment I listened to my mother. I stopped screaming, put the ice on my thigh, I prayed and thank God that I was okay. I felt better because instead of basking in my sorrows asking questions; I took action to improve my situation. I now live by the lesson I learned that day to take action and don't stop to complain.
I'm gonna put in my all. I'm giving everything I have into what I want for myself and picture it everyday because that's how dreams become reality. For those sleepy sleepless night; I will fight and do my best to rock on. Every step I take is a step closer to my goals; even baby steps.
What you gonna do about it?
So, the next time you procrastinate on your next DIY or room remodeling project remember the question and take some form of action. Action will bring you closer to your goal. Do something about it. Don't just sit there and allow yourself another unproductive day of life.
Walk through the door of endless opportunities and possibilities. Go for what you want!
Today I challenge you with this simple question:
What you gonna do about it?
Please comment below. I would love to know how you plan to take action towards your goals whether or not related to decorating.